ATTENTION.

Hey guys. 

So i'm calling out to all who wanted to help me write my next story. I'm ready to get this show on the road! Hit me up and twitter and we can find a way to write and plan the story. I also saw on of you left a comment about a good story line I think it was about Nic's daughter not doing well in school and Safaree being head and a romance blossoms from there? It sounded amazing. I would love to write with that person. I wouldn't mind doing more than one also. I think these people wanted to do a story? 

- @ItsMe_NotYu         

- @NickisAngel

- @Onika_nickistan

Let me know if you are still interested. Because I am!!

Get back to me guys. 

@nicknack_barbie 

Nicole xx

Pics.

Here are some pictures to help you VISUALIZE Onikafaree's home, places they go, ect.


This is Nic's home she currently lives in. The house her and Safaree got when they got married. The house Safaree is also returning to.

This is Onikafaree's chill room. Chill out, just relax. Like a no electronics zone room.

This is what I like to call the fire room. Just cause it has a fire. This is where family hang out, and things like that. Play games and things.

Inside the current Onikafaree home. Nice. Don't cha think?

This is the #PrettyGang room. FEMALES ONLY.

This is like a side view. That is a guest bedroom.

Onikafaree bedroom.

#RICHGANG cave. AKA. MAN CAVE.

Another guest room.

Onikafaree bathroom

Spa stuff outside.

Poooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool.

Kitchen,



I wanted you to get a full feel off the house! MORE TO COMEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Confessions.

I'm back my darlingssssssssssssssssssssss.

WHO MISSED ME>?! I'm sorry I haven't posted. I recently had writers block. And lost a lot of confidence in myself, and have been going through some "life issues". Boyfriend troubles. You get the jist>?! Anyways.

 Here's what you all want from me I guess -________________-

The nurse looked at Safaree confused. “Yes pregnancy Mr Samuels, I’m sorry if your wife hasn’t told you I just thought…” Safaree looked down at the floor and turned around then started walking towards the exit. He left the building.

Safaree never looked back once and went to go sit in his black range rover. He slammed his fist against the steering wheel, then started talking to himself.

Safaree

 “No, no, NO! This can’t be true. She wouldn’t have kept this from me! That’s my child she is carrying. Why would she hide something like that from me?! Does she not think I would be a good father. Does she think I would abandon my child?! Does she think that I didn’t want children with her? That I don’t want to have a family with her?”

No one

Safaree put his head in his hands. Tears started flooding down his face. Could it be his fault Nicki and his child are in the position now? Because he stressed her out? He couldn’t contain his tears. His wife is pregnant with his child, and she didn’t even think to tell him. How could she do that him?! She didn’t create that chid on her own. Safaree had a right to know.

Safaree decided enough of the crying and it was time to confront Nicki. He opened the car door, and stepped out of his black range rover. He speed walked into the main reception of the hospital. The same nurse was at the reception desk. Still looking confused at Nicki’s charts.

“Ummm .. Hi .. Do you know which room my wife is in now? And if she and the baby are okay?”  The nurse looked up and smiled.

 “Yes, Mrs Samuels is in room B208, which is on the second floor, in the middle of the corridor. Opposite where you get out of the lift, and I’m sorry sir.I have no news on either of their conditions right now. But I do hope she is okay”.

Before she fully finished her sentence Safaree was speed walking off towards the lift. He pushed the button once. 5 seconds later he was repeatedly pushing the button at a ridiculous speed because the lift wasn’t coming fast enough for his liking. His banged his fist against the lift and ran for the stairs. He barged through the double doors, and shot up the stairs. He made it to the second floor and ran straight to the middle of the corridor until he stopped outside Nicki’s door. He started breathing really fast. And began to get really angry.

“NO Safaree, calm down, don’t make a scene, don’t stress Nicki out. Let her come around in her own time, she will tell you, that’s your child, she is going to tell you, she has to. S She can’t keep you from your baby. You made her together. Out of your love. ”

 Safaree kept repeating this to himself over and over again. Before he finally placed his hand on one of the double doors. He then banged his head against the door while putting his other hand on the untouched door. He pushed the door open …

 ARIGHT. THAT'S ENOUGH! I'M FINISHED :P 

JUSSSSSSSST KIDDING. DID I SCARE YOU GUYS? DID YOU THINK YOU WAS GETTING ANOTHER CLIFFY?! Hehe. Anyways >>>> 

Nicki
I wonder what Safaree will think when I tell him about Lady Bug. I know he is going to be really fucking mad at me. But how was I supposed to know that he wanted her?! He rejected me! And as her mother it is my job to protect her from anything! ESPEICALLY rejection from her own father! I wonder if they told him about her. No, they wouldn’t do that. They don’t have the right. Hopefully he doesn’t know so I can tell him the right way. Whichever way, he is going blow through the roof.

 I heard someone slam their hands on the door. Maybe that’s Safaree. Oh well. It’s NOW. OR NEVER.

Safaree

 I decided to stop thinking about it, and just do it …

No one.

Safaree peeked in through the door, he spotted Nicki sitting in the bed, either on twitter, or answering an email. Safaree directly looked her in the eyes, while she did the same back.

“I’m sorry …” They both said together at the same time.

“Let me go first” Nicki said as she shuffled her way around the bed to get in a comfortable seat. She then tapped the chair next to her bed as a gesture for Safaree to sit down.

“Come sit” Nicki said in a monotone voice.

“Listen, Safaree, I know we have a lot to say to each other and a lot to discuss but please. Just hear me out first, and listen to what I have got to say because it is REALLY important. And  I can’t hold it in any longer, nor do I want to hide it from you anymore. Safaree shifted in his seat, thinking he was prepared for what Nicki was about to say. Nicki put her phone down, and turned to face Safaree.

“Safaree, I um .. Look, I want …” Safaree just wanted her to say whatever she was going to say. Even though he was feeling pretty positive now, that it wasn’t about the baby.

“Just tell me Nicki, stop messing me about” Safaree looked sad. His face was flushed. He was really just fed up, he just wanted his wife and life back. And now his unborn child.

 “I want … Safaree … I can’t do this anymore!” Safaree looked shocked. Was she saying what he thought she was saying?!

“Nic, what are you talking about?! GIVE ME SOMETHING HERE!” Safaree leaned forward, gripping onto the edge of Nicki’s bed.

“Safaree .. don’t be mad .. But .. I want you to know that … I’m pregnant! THERE I SAID IT. NOW GET AS MAD AS YOU WANT, SHOUT AS LOUD AS YOU WANT. I deserve it. But you should know, that I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have kept her from you”. Safaree sighed. He thought Nicki had reached breaking point. Don’t mistake him though, he’s still mad she lied and kept the baby from him, but they could work through it right?

Nicki now had tears streaming down her face, her face was flushed which matched Safaree’s.

“Safaree, please, please say something!” Safaree wiped at the one tear that rolled down his cheek.

“I’m sorry.” Safaree said. He felt guilty that he put Nic and his child in hospital. Probably from the stress and shouting back at the house.

“No Safaree, you have nothing to be sorry about! I was stupid! What kind of wife keeps a child from her husband?! I’m sorry, so sorry. For EVERYTHING. For our break, for not being there for you, for not being the wife I should be, or should have been. Safaree … Please …”

“Nic, look. I’m mad, but not mad enough not forgive you. I understand that you probably felt rejection from me, but I only walked out so we could fix us in the long run. We needed to learn how to trust each other. And we didn’t have that. I realize now that it was probably a silly idea, seeing as you were pregnant and I left you alone, but had I of known, it wouldn’t of been like that. You do know that. Don’t you Nic?

“Yes Faree … But about our Lady Bug … I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have kept you from her. FUCK! I’m such a bad mother!” Safaree sat in shock. Did she just say baby girl. We’re having a girl, a little  girl.

“A girl? We’re having a girl?” A smile seeped onto Safaree’s face.

“Yes Faree a girl. We created a little girl.” Nicki tried to smile as best as she could. But she still felt she was in a pool of guilt.

“Nic, I know you think I’m mad, but to be honest, I’m just upset, disappointed I’ll get over it. We’ll get over it … That is if you still want there to be an us … To be a family … I know I do.”

Nicki smiled. Could all there problems be resolved or is it all a dream, too good to be true?!  

Safaree reached for Nicki’s hand. She pulled the sheets off of her bump and placed her and Safaree’s joint hand on her baby bump.

“Of course I want our family back, I never wanted this for us. I never wanted to hide our baby from you, I never wanted you to leave me, not even for a day. Let alone 2 months Faree. Come home. We need you.” 

Safaree smiled as Nicki put her other hand on the side of his cheek. Looking him directly in the eyes, as she stroked his cheek. Safaree smiled.

“Of course I will come home Onika. I’ll come home to you and our baby girl. And I promise next time we have an issue or problem or anything, going through a rough patch. I’m gonna be right there to fix it. I’m NEVER leaving your side again. Believe me. I love you”.

Nicki smiled for the first time in months.

“I love you too Faree, and so does our baby girl.” Safaree and Nicki shared a passionate kiss. Just as the nurse walked through the door. Nicki turned around and smiled at the doctor.

“Hello Mr&Mrs Samuels. I’m Nurse Jackee*. Onika, you and the baby are fine, you were just very dehydrated, and stressed out I presume. Lets try to keep the stress to the minimum and drink lots and lots of water. Okay? Then we won’t have to have this problem again!” She smiled at Nicki.

Nicki smiled back. 

“Okay Nurse, thank you.” Safaree grabbed Nicki’s hand.

“Don’t worry, no more stress, everything is going to be alright.”

“You are now okay to be release Mrs Samuels. Please just sign the papers, here, here, and here.”

There nurse pointed to the places that she needed Nicki to sign in order to be released. Nicki signed everywhere she needed to.

“Okay great, take it easy. Drink lots and keep stress to the bare minimum. Take care Mrs Samuels. See you in two days for your 5 month scan. Safaree turned to Nicki, with a confused look on his face.

 “5 months? That’s a long time, and you don’t look five months.” Safaree said as they walked out of the hospital. Nicki looked at him and smiled.

“Yeap, I only found out a couple weeks after you left. Turns out I was already 2 months pregnant. I was pretty surprised too.”

“Oh.”

“Yeah … So are you coming home?” Nicki asked, afraid he would say he just needed a little more space, or a couple hours to get his head together.

“Of course, nowhere else I would rather be.” Safaree said as he held Nicki from behind and put his hands on her bump.

“We’re going to get through this Faree. I know it”. Nicki said looking up at the stars. 

OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. I'M FLIPPING DONE. I hope I done well. I'm really not feeling this chapter, or this story any more. I just don't know :( But anyways 20 COMMENTS. OR I'M NOT POSTING AGAIN. Tell me what you want to happen next, which direction you want this story to go in ... ect. 

Love ya'll. My lil ugliesssss :) :) :D :D

SORRY, for any mistakes ect, but the way a (*) means pronnounciations. So 

Jackee - ZHAR-KAY. Get me? Lmaaao :( 

-Nicole

CHAPTER ...

Looks like no post then. As I only got THREE COMMENTS ON THE LAST CHAPTER. Guess the next two chapters will sit pretty in my documents then .. :(

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I love you guys so much& I felt so bad I'll continue. I can't update till this Friday when it's half term. College/sixth form is kicking my ass -_-
Love you's.

By the way. DRAMA DRAMA DRANA. And you'll never guess what ! :P COMMENT SO I KNOW IF I ACTUALLY HAVE READERS. 20 COMMENTS AT LEAST.

So sorry.

I'm so sorry to the people who actually like this story but I have come to the decision to stop the blog. I appreciate all the comments and the love you all have shown my blog. But I just ugh. I don't know. I feel like it's shit and it's a waste of my time and yours. Thank you guys for sticking with me :D It's not a definite definite decision yet. But who knows.

Love Nicole :( :)

GUYS.

DON'T BE MAD AT MEEEEEEEEEEEEE. *hides under bed*

I know you are all probably mad cause I said I would post the rest at 15 comments and I didn't. But the reason being is that my mum had to take my laptop so I couldn't post. She has taken it for the whole summer to do her work from home as she works in Central London and needs to work at home as the Olympics are cause major traffic and it's preventing her from getting to work. So I am stuck with my crappy old laptop that doesn't work properly. And all my work is on my other laptop. So I'm just asking you all to be patient with me while I type up this new chapter and get this done. It's also summer holidays and I'm trying to squeeze in as much fun as I can, and spend time with friends and family before I go on holiday and then start college life. Sorry for the wait guys. And thank you all for the comments ! You guys are amazing. 

Lots of love. 

Nicole. (opens notepad and starts writing for my darlings) x


OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH. YESSSSSSSSS. And also I have my ideas for the joint fan fiction. I forgot which ones of you said that you would like to, there can be more than one person to join me. So hit me up on twitter @nicknack_barbie OR my tumblr http://nicolegraceann.tumblr.com/ and leave comments on THIS and let me know what kind of blog you are interested in doing and story lines you have got ect. And then we will go from there. 

Love.

The Whole Truth

HEYYYYYYYYYYYYY YA'LL. I'M BACCCCCCCK ! :) Miss me?!
This is only a teaserrrrr. And ya'll have to work for the rest :P Loveee yousss.

“Nicki, Nicki, NIC! Come on Nic, please you have to wake up for me! Come on! Nic! “

Safaree totally ignored what he thought he felt, and tried to get some type of response out of Nicki. When he didn’t he picked Nicki up bridal style and carried her to his black range rover. He strapped her in the back and hurried to the drivers side of his car and sped to the hospital without caring about how much he was going over the speed limit. As soon as he got o the hospital car park he found the closest parking space to the hospital entrance and quickly stopped the car the car where an unconscious Nicki was slumped in the back seat. Safaree quickly wiped at the tears that were one by one dripping down his cheeks. He again picked Nicki up bridal style and quickly made his way quickly to the hospital desk.

“Hello sir. How may we help you?” The nurse said in a rushed tone, trying to get the the root of gthe problem.

“Umm .. It’s my .. my wife. She just passed just over 20 mins again. She’s now unconscious” 

  Safaree said as the tears came quicker down his face. A pair of doctors came and took Nicki out of his arms and took her to the ward where they would put her on the drip

“Okay sir, calm down. Everything will be fine. What is your wife’s name? And was she under any kind of stress or pressure at the time that this happened?” The nurse asked typing away.

“Well we had quite a heated argument just before she passed out. And her name is Onika Samuels” Safaree said while feeling a gush of guilt running through his body knowing that this was probably his fault his wife was in this position.

“Onika Samuels .. Hmmm. Okay, Sir it may do we don’t know anything right now but as soon as we do find something out we will be sure to let you know. You may want to take a seat sir as this could take a long time” The nurse said as she got out Nicki’s folder. Safaree banged his fist on the table then stormed off outside as this was becoming all too much for him. The nurse suddenly got up and shouted for Safaree.

“Mr Samuels! Mr Samuels!” The nurse called for Safaree. He stopped and turned around to face the nurse.

“Yes?! Is there any news on my wife?”  Safaree asked desperate for answers to put his mind at ease.

“Not yet sir but I will check for you in a minute, but as Onika’s doctor isn’t here right now would you be able to tell me exactly how far along in she is in her pregnancy?”

“Ummm .. Pregnancy?!” Safaree shouted.

I love teasing you guys J Hehe. All my exams are over now, so I have a whole 4 months off till I’m going to college so I will be posting a lot :D Hope you like this little sneak peak. 12 COMMENTS AT LEAST FOR THE REST OF THE CHAPTER. Hope you like it guys. Sorry for any spellings and all that. Cba to check it overrrr.  – Nicole ;) 

Sorry.

First things first. I WILL yes. I WILL, be posting tonight. Not one. But two chapters. (I hope ya happy^_^)

But ...

Sorry for the wait. I have not been very motivated at all. And I have been feeling a bit down, I'm also finishing up all of my work at school as I leave on Thursday. I'm trying my best to get the chapter done but I just can't focus. I've also had thoughts about quitting the story but I don't think I'm gonna do that anymore. I've started and I will finish. Incase any of you were wondering this will not be a short story. AKA 50 or less chapters. I'm hoping to reach a lot more than that. I also won't drag on storylines. So any drama that goes on will be finished, and some new drama will start. We will also have some peace and cute scenes. A lot of ya'll have said some really nice things and they have really made me happy and I appriciate ALL you have to say. I'm also thinking of doing a JOINT fan fic as well. But that will happen after this story is good and going. If you are intrersted leave your @ name. And I will follow you back and we can DM to talk about it. Or it would be easier if you hit my tumblr ask box (the link is down below) and we can discuss through that. Thank you all so much for reading and commenting. I'm really hoping you are enjoying this stroy. If you don't want to leave a comment you can hit me up on twitter - @nicknack_barbie or you can message me on tumblr which would be really nice http://www.tumblr.com/blog/nicolegraceann my tumblr ask box is also if you have any questions about the story or when I will be posting, or about characters, or storylines ect ! But have a nice day guys. And we shall meet again later on today when I post.
Love.

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Thinking of posting today?

I'm not gonna front. Everday my views go up. But ya'll don't like leaving comments :(

What am I gonna do you guys ?! How do I know if ya'll are liking the story or not? :(

Nicole.

Past&Present

 “Look Safaree, I’m in no position to argue with you right now. Can you just leave please.”

 Nicki felt tears welling up in the back of her eyes. This is not how it was supposed to be. They were supposed to be happy. One big happy family. But in reality. She just knew it wasn’t going to work.

“NO Onika. I want answers, and you will give them to me.”

“You are such a fucking fool Safaree. I can’t believe I married you! How could you even THINK of something like that?! Let alone SAY IT. You are so stupid! UHHHHHHH I HATE YOU. Maybe I should date Drake. Better yet. Maybe I should have married him instead!”

Nicki took a deep breath and stormed off to the kitchen. Hoping Safaree wouldn’t follow her but he did.

Safaree was mad. He didn’t understand why Nicki was acting the way she was. Because quite simply if it was the other way around and Nicki saw pictures and video’s on the internet and “news” of him with one of his EX fiancés. She would have gone BALLISTIC. But because it’s the other way around it’s a whole different story.

Trust had always been a big problem for Nicki and Safaree. Well not exactly trust, but because of the way they came into their relationship, they were scared that could be the same way they left it.

Safaree and Nicki had been the BEST of friends since they were young. Nicki and Safaree ALWAYS had very strong feelings for each other. They were in love with each other, and everyone knew about it EXCEPT for them. When Nicki and Safaree decided it was time to confess their love for each other they were both engaged. Nicki to her 4year boyfriend Luke and Safaree to his 3 ½ year girlfriend Olivia-Rae.

 As well as being engaged Nicki was 2 ½ months pregnant, and Olivia-Rae was ALWAYS on Safaree case about trying for a baby. She was extremely jealous of what Nicki and Luke supposedly had together. Prior to their break-ups, When Nicki and Safaree confessed their love for each other. They had started an intimate affair with each other. A few weeks into the affair Nicki had found out she was pregnant.

 She didn’t know how far along she was, but she was just hoping it wasn’t Safaree’s baby. She knew that there could be a possibility because they had not used protection not once. Whereas with Luke, most of the time they had been using protection, apart from a few times where they got lazy and didn’t bother. Finally when Nicki had gone to the doctors they said that she was a month along which means there was no way it could be Safaree’s baby, and that it was defiantly Luke’s. This was good news for the couple. But for Safaree it wasn’t. He was deeply upset by this. He didn’t understand how Nicki was happy about being pregnant by another man. Even though they weren’t together, and Luke was her Fiancé, Nicki had told him numerous times that he was the one she loved, and not that only that. But she was IN LOVE with him.

The feelings were mutual. But as soon the good news got out. The bad news came spilling out too. A few days later Olivia-Rae found texts from Nicki on Safaree’s phone which he had forgotten to delete. This told all, she was on FIRE. She was mad as HELL. But instead of confronting the situation, she forwarded the texts straight to Luke’s phone packed her bags, and left without saying another word.

Later Safaree had caught on to what had happened when Nicki came to his apartment banging on his door cursing and hitting him for being so stupid and telling him how much she hates him. Luke had called off the engagement and broken up with her. He had also denied their child. He thought that because she was cheating, it wasn’t his baby and it was probably Safaree’s. So he would let him deal with his problems. But Nicki then realised that it was for the best. She really did love Safaree, and she knew Safaree loved her. This meant that they could finally be together and be happy, without all the sneaking, hiding and lying.

There was only just one problem. The baby. Safaree and Nicki had talked it over, and Safaree had decided it was okay that she was pregnant with Luke’s baby. If Nicki wanted and didn’t mind he would raise the baby as his own and he wouldn’t have a problem with it at all. He knew that he would be a better father than Luke would anyway. But problems started to occur. 

Luke started appearing in the scene again, stressing Nicki out. Sending Nicki nasty text messages, saying he was going to do this, that and the other to her, not to mention he said he was gonna kill Safaree. After this message Nicki distanced herself from everyone. She locked herself in her room didn’t, eat, drink, shower, talk do anything apart from sleep, and look out of the window wishing that someone would just take her away. Sadly this caused Nicki to have a miscarriage. After this happened Safaree took matters into his own hands. His sorted out Luke. Which was no problem at all, and he managed to slowly, but surely get Nicki back on track.

“Well Nicki what do you expect me to think! We aren’t on good terms and I know how lonely you could get, and what you get like when you are lonely. So why wouldn’t you run to Drake?! AND YOU KNOW HOW DRAKE IS AROUND YOU. AND WHAT HE SAYS ABOUT YOU!”

Safaree sighed. He didn’t want to be arguing with Nicki.

Nicki got angry. Her blood was starting to boil, and she knew this wasn’t gonna end well at all.

“JEALOUS ARE WE SAFAREE?”

“HELL YEAH. ARE YOU CRAZY?! DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS IS LIKE FOR ME?! FOR US?!”

“To be quite fucking honest Safaree. I don’t fucking care what people think. Anyone who has fucking sense wouldn’t have to ask so a fucking pathetic question!”

Nicki didn’t understand why Safaree didn’t trust her. They were MARRIED. Did that not mean anything to him at all?!

“YOU KNOW THE FUCK WHAT SAFAREE. IF YOU DON’T EVEN TRUST ME. WHY THE FUCK ARE WE EVEN MARRIED?!”

This made Safaree extremely angry. But he needed to keep his angry under control. Safaree didn’t want to say what he wanted to, but he needed Nicki to see it from where he was standing.

“I DON’T KNOW ONIKA. YOU TELL ME. ALL I’M SAYING IS. YOU DONE IT ONCE. YOU CAN DO IT AGAIN”

Nicki ran up to Safaree and slapped him HARD in his face. Her heart was racing.

“WHAT?! HOW FUCKING DARE YOU SAFAREE. YOU KNOW WHAT. GET THE FUCK OUT”

Nicki started to push Safaree in the direction of the door.

“YOU WERE PART OF IT TOO SAFAREE. OR DID YOU FORGET THAT YOU ALSO CHEATED ON YOUR FIANCE. STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME LOOK LIKE THE FUCKING BAD GUY. AND DON’T STAND THERE AND TRY TO ACT ALL INNOCENT LIKE YOU HAVEN’T BEEN FUCKING BITCHES SINCE WE SPILT UP”

Safaree was just about to SHUT NICKI DOWN. When Nicki held her belly and screamed in pain.

“NICKI?! NICKI, NIC!” Safaree shouted.

No response.

Nicki blacked out and Safaree caught her in his arms when he felt something kick .. 

OKAAAAAAAAAAAY YA'LL. I hope this will hold you all over until TUESDAY. Trust me. I want Onikafaree as much as you do. I don't wanna give anything away but next couple of chapters will be cute :) And that's all I will say about that ! *martha voice*. Lots of feedbackkkkkkkkkkkk pretty please ! Hope ya'll like it. Onikafaree will be soon! Don't you worry my darlingsssssss! But until next timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! *kissy face* 

- Nicole 

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Why are you here ?

Nicki was just getting into a deep sleep when she heard the door knock multiple times. She wondered if it would be Lauren or Candi or both. Nicki said no more than above a whisper.

 “I could have sworn they said they would be here for over an hour, there’s no way they could be here.”

 Nicki let out a small sigh. She then got up out of her bed and put on a big baggy jumper.  Nicki said aloud 

“I wonder who that could be”.

 Nicki made her way down the 4 story house to the bottom. She didn’t bother looking through the eye hole. She opened the door straight. Ahead of her was someone she’d thought she’d never see for a very very long time. Nicki felt her heart ache. The person at the door had changed dramatically from when Nicki had last seen them. It felt like at least 2 years.

“What.The.Fuck.Are.You.Doing.Here”. Nicki gritted through her teeth.

 “Well before I left, I told you Onika. This was being sorted out. So. Are you gonna let me in or not?!” 

Nicki sighed heavily so the person at the door could hear VERY CLEARLY that she was not impressed. Nicki then rolled her eyes. She then proceeded to respond to the mystery person at the door.

 “FIRST of all, YOU out of all people have no rights to call me Onika. So don’t ever try pull that shit again. SECOND of don’t you ever turn up to MY house, that I, YES ME, paid for out of my good, hard earned money. WITHOUT my fucking 

permission!”

 The person at the door ignores her question and asks one of their own.

 “So. Is it true then Onika?!”

 The person walked into the Nicki’s house and turned around to face her. Nicki was now mad at this point.

 “IS WHAT FUCKING TRUE SAFAREE?!”

Nicki felt her body tense. Could Safaree possibly know that she is pregnant with his child? If so who told him? And how was she going to explain that she was 5 months pregnant with his child, but never thought to tell him.

 Safaree started to get angry. All he wanted was answers. Well that’s what he kept telling himself. All he wanted was for him and Nicki to be back to normal. But he knew that it was gonna take A LOT of time. All he wanted was his wife and his life back. He missed Nicki like crazy. He couldn’t sleep, eat, think without her. He felt like he was living in a place that was in a never ending drought. Safaree knew that deep down. Nicki missed him too. He knew that she was feeling exactly the same way he was. He just needed to get it out of her. The only reason Safaree came back was to get his wife. He didn’t want to argue, or make things worse between them. But if this was the only way he could do it. Then so be it. But before he could start with that. He needed ASNWERS. Safaree tried to keep himself on a cool. But Nicki’s attitude was really rubbing him up the wrong way.

“DON’T THINK I DON’T HEAR ABOUT AND SEE PICTURES AND VIDEO’S OF YOURS AND DRAKES DATES ONIKA!”

 Nicki instantly let out a long breath she didn’t know she was holding. She was happy in a way that Safaree didn’t know. That would have started a whole load of trouble. But what was his deal with Drake. Nicki’s first thought was why do you care. So that’s what Nicki went ahead and asked him.

 “Yeah and … Why do you care. Don’t you remember what YOU did Safaree! What I do is NOTHING to do with you. We made that agreement when you walked out of that fucking door. Don’t act like you don’t remember!”

 “NO, ONIKA. WE DIDN’T MAKE THAT DECISION YOU DID. I KNOW WHAT I DID WAS WRONG. BUT WHAT YOU DID TOO WAS OUT OF ORDER. WE WERE BOTH WRONG. AND YOU KNOW IT. WE ARE BOTH BAD GUYS. So, Are you gonna answer my question? ARE YOU DATING DRAKE?!”

 Nicki decided to calm down. She knew that the stress and shouting wasn’t good for the baby’s sake or hers. She just wanted Safaree to leave. Nicki couldn’t have another repeat of what happened last time.  She needed to clear her head. Did Safaree REALLY think she was dating Drake?! Even though they have made a commitment to each other. He still thinks I would do that?

*hides under the bed*. I'm sorry you guys. It's just that I finish school in less than two weeks, and i'm trying to get everything done and finished. And then i'm off to college ! So hopefully you like this chapter. Let me know what you think. Chapter 4 will be up at 1pm. All written out and ready for you all ! Oh yeah. You're not getting off that easy ! 10 comments at least or no chapter ! 

Nicole xo 

Awaiting

Nicki woke up feeling somewhat better than she did the day before. She was thankful for the conversation she had with her mum last night. It really did ease the pain of not having Safaree around anymore. Nicki had a day off today. Well not exactly she had a few radio calls to do. But they weren’t that much of an effort because she could just lay down in bed and take the calls. Then after that. Nicki was a free woman for the day. Nicki sat up in the bed and looked around the bed for her phone and TV remote. 

Nicki just wanted to chill for a couple of hours, and watch some Judge Judy. Nicki found the TV remote but she couldn’t find her phone. She remembered it ringing a few times last night, and wanted to check who the calls were from. Nicki just left it and put on her recorded series of Judy Judy. Nicki sat back and relaxed and rubbed her belly. She could feel her baby kick. She looked down at her belly and said

 “Hey baby girl, what you doing in there? You awake now?” Nicki let out a slight giggle.

 A couple of hours later Nicki felt the need to get up, get washed and dressed. She went into her closet and picked out a light shaded pink tracksuit, some underwear and some socks. She then headed off to the shower. Nicki ran the shower then stripped. Nicki then stepped in the shower and washed her body and her natural hair. Once she was done she came out of the shower and wrapped up in her hot pink towel she took off the radiator. She then took the coco butter from the cabinet and rubbed it all over her skin. Nicki then squeezed a little extra and rubbed it all over her belly. She felt her baby kick.

 “You like that baby girl? Do ya?” Nicki chuckled.

 She then put on her clothes. Nicki decided it was time to look for her phone because the radio interviews were about to start soon. Nicki walked into her bedroom, she shook her sheets. It wasn’t there. Looked in her draws. Her phone wasn’t there. Nicki put her hand on head and the other on her stomach. She thought long and hard about where it could be. “AHA” Nicki said. “Gotcha”. Nicki bent down on both of her hands, and crawled underneath her bed. “Found youuu!” She shouted. And got back up. Nicki unlocked her phone and saw all the missed calls and texts from a familiar number. She took a double glance at the number and said “Hmmm, probably just one of Cai’s other phones, 

"I should really call him back” Just as she was about to press call, her phone rang. Nicki sighed and answered the phone. 

"Helloooooo” Nicki said.

 “Yo, yo, yo, miss MINAJ, how you feeling today?!” 

“I’m good! How are you?!"

 “Yes! That’s what we like to hear! I’m fine. But Nicki what your barbz really wants to know is whens that new album coming out?!” Nicki laughed a little. 

“Weeeeeeeeeeeell, I have been working on it a little, so it should be out End of November, early December, and the barbz will all LOVE it.”

 “YESSSSSSSSSS! GOOD NEWSSS! Is there a certain type of theme to it?”

 “No, you know how I am, I don’t like to tie myself down to one type of music, I like to do what I feel, when I feel! And that’s exactly how the album is going to be!”

 “YES MISS NICKI! So what about features, we getting any?”

 “Yeah, there will be a few, I guess”

 “Niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. “Well thank you for talking to us, would you like to introduce your knew song starships for us?!” 

“Yessss I would!”

 “Okay shoot” 

“Alright. BARBZZZZZZ IT’S ME! This is my knew song starships! I hope you love it as much as I do! Enjoy! MWAH!”

 And with that Nicki hung up. She knew she would be repeating that conversation about 10 more times. But after that she was free. Nicki spent about an hour and a half doing radio interviews. Talking about the same things, like her album, upcoming projects ect. Little did they know she would be taking a long break once her baby comes.

 But Nicki couldn't think about telling the outside world right now. The biggest issue was telling the baby’s father. The last thing she wants to happen is for Safaree to find out by the media. That wouldn't go right at all. Deep down Nicki knew that she should have never hid the pregnancy from him. But she was so hurt and upset that she wanted to hurt him. And she thought that this way was best. But she always knew that was the wrong thing to do. Now Nicki has got herself caught up in an awful mess. And the only way she can get out, is to tell Safaree and deal with the consequences of her actions.

 Nicki missed her friends and wanted to catch up so she called Candi and Lauren on a three way call. 

“Hey guys, I miss you and I’m lonely. Can we meet up and do something, but something quiet and discrete, cause the little one.

” “Yeah sounds great Nika, you down Lauren?”

 “Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaap I’m down Can, what you want to do Nika?”

 “Hmmmm! I’m not sure guys, but I need to get out of this damn house. Mind you, I have to get ready for my mums visit. She’s coming to stay for a bit. Buttttttttttttttttttttttt. Make ya way here. And we’ll decide from there okay?” Both Candi and Lauren agreed.

 “Yeap. I’m gonna be a couple of hours, I’m just coming back from my mums” Candi said.

 “And as for me, I’m just on my way back from seeing Rex, so give me an hour or so”  

“Alright guys, love ya!” And then Nicki ended the call. *Sigh*.

 “I guess it’s time to call back Cai”. Nicki dialled the unknown number. 6rings later someone picked up. 

“Hello” Nicki said. 

“Hello, Nicki?”

 As soon as Nicki heard the voice, she quickly pressed the button, and threw the phone to the end of the bed. The thoughts that were running through her mind were “why the FUCK is he calling me, what does he want? What does he know? What’s going on? Why after only NOW, is he calling me?!”

 Nicki was snapped out of her trance by her phone constantly ringing. Nicki was scared to pick it up. Nicki slowly reached to the end of the bed and clicked answer. 

“WHAT?” Nicki answer the phone with an awful attitude.

 “I think we need to meet up Onika. And you know why”. 

“You can’t just ring me out of the blue, and expect me to drop everything to meet up with you. I’m sorry it doesn't work that way Safaree. You were the one who made it like this. So if this happens at all it happens on my terms”

 “When were you going to tell me Onika?!” Safaree asked with a hint of anger in his voice. And with that Nicki ended the call. Nicki just didn't know what to do. Nicki’s phone just kept ringing and ringing and ringing. She switched it off. She needed to clear her mind. Half an hour later. There was a loud knock on her front door ..

Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay guys ! Here’s the second chapter! What do you think? Ima some comments cause I see the pageviews going up! Sorry it took so long to post, I’ve been really ill recently. But I still mamanged to get the chapter done as promised. Let me know what you think! Remember to comment. Or @ me @nicknack_barbie, or if you would prefer to DM me, leave your at name and I’ll follow you, then we can go from there J I haven’t had that much time to read over it, so excuse the mistakes! 
-Nicole Grace’ann 

Wishful Thinking

As she looked over the balcony, out into the late LA skyline all Nicki could think about was how her life had been turned upside down in only a few days. Up until a few days before now, Nicki had the perfect car, house. Nicki had the money, the celeb friends, the designer clothes, shoes and bags. But she had just one thing missing. The perfect husband, boyfriend and best friend. Nicki had all of this up until only a few months ago. Nicki took a sip of her sparkling water and placed the glass back on the floor. She continued to look outside.

2000 - 
Onika and Safaree sat on the steps outside Safaree’s house. Thinking. They had just come back from High school. Today was careers day. Onika and Safaree both enjoyed the day. However they came to the conclusion that both of them wanted different things from life. This worried them as they were the best of friends. Their parents were very close. They had met each other through being neighbours while both of them were pregnant. Ever since then they had been close. Nicki and Safaree had grown up together, attended all the same schools, all the same out of school activities. As well as becoming unbreakable. 

“Faree ..” Nicki nudged him.  Breaking him out of his trance. 

“Yeah Nika?” 

He looked at Nicki right in her eyes. Hoping she was going to say what he has wanted to say for months. 

“Promise me that even if I do become an actress and you become an entrepreneur that we will always be bestfriends. Or even if we have a big falling out, that you’ll always be there for me. Because I need you Faree  ... You are my bestfriend, my brother. I could never lose you. Please don’t leave me”

 Safaree grabbed both of Nicki’s hands and looked her directly in her eyes. 

“Onika, we have fallen out many times before, and we have made up. We will never fall out or be apart. We are like two peas in a pod. We’ll always be bestfriends and we’ll always have each other’s back. You’ll never lose me. And I know I’ll never lose you.”

 
“I know Faree  ... I love you” 

“Love you too Nika” Nicki and Safaree embrace each other in a long hug.

Present Day – 
Nicki put her hand over her baby bump.

 “He promised he’d never leave, he’d promise we’ll all be bestfriends, always be together. That no matter how big our arguments were, that’d he would always have my back. He said he loved me. Guess that was a lie too”.

 Nicki rubbed her hand in circular motions over the medium sized bulge showing through her “It’s pink Friday hoe” top. She whispered to it

 “I love you baby girl, hopefully you’re daddy does too.” 

Nicki stood to her feet and made her way to her bedroom. She pulled out a pair of comfortable girls boxers alongside one of Safaree’s old t-shirts. Nicki then headed off to the bathroom to get in the shower. She ran the shower for a few minutes to let the shower warm up. Nicki took off her clothes and looked at herself in the mirror. She cradled her baby bump and whispered 

“wow baby girl, you’re really getting big now aren’t ya”

 Nicki giggled then walked over to the shower. As she stood underneath the shower she thought over everything she has been feeling these past few months. The only thing that really stuck out to her was what if Safaree didn’t want this baby? What if he didn’t want to have anything to do with her? Or what about if he did, how was he going to take it that Nicki had hid from him that she is pregnant with his child by 5 months? What if Safaree wants to be a family? How can she guarantee he won’t walk out and leave her again? She could not put her baby through that. Nicki would never let that happen. These thoughts could not be pushed to the back of Nicki’s head.

  Nicki washed herself with her dove soap. Nicki rinsed herself off. She stepped out of the shower, grabbed her multi shaded pink towel and wrapped it around herself. Nicki then entered her bedroom and grabbed her coco butter. She sat down on the bed and thoroughly rubbed the coco butter all over her body. It was times like this when she just wished Safaree was here. Just to experience the pregnancy. And to be there for her and support her. But he wasn’t. Nicki had to do it all alone. Well she wasn’t exactly alone. Nicki had Lauren, Candi, her mum and dad. Also her brothers and some other close friends and family members. Still. With all of that support, without the one man she needed by her side she felt all alone. Nicki’s phone rang snapping her out of her thoughts.

 “Hello?”

 Nicki said putting the coco butter back on the night stand and putting on her pj’s that were sat at the end of her bed. 

“Hello Nika, how you and little missy doing?” 

“Were doing good ma, just relaxing, doing what I can. We’re currently just getting into bed. But. How is everything at home?” Nicki said getting underneath the covers. 

“Good! Good news is what I love to hear. And everything is good. Cai has been complaining that he has been missing you, but apart from that. We are all good. And everything is brilliant!” Nicki giggled.

 “Awwww, my baby. Well tell Cai, as long as his school grades are up, and it’s okay with you, he can spend his spring break with me! And that’s good to hear ma really” Mrs Maraj smiled. She loved the bond that all three of her kids had. 

Even though Jelani was grown and had kids of his own. The three were still unbreakable.

 “Oh that would be lovely Onika! I will talk to him and I’ll let you know”

 “Okay ma! Sounds great .. OWWWW! Nicki winced in pain. 

“NICKI! NIKA! What’s wrong?” “Uh .. nothing ma. I think she just kicked for the first time! Oh my gosh ma ! It’s so real! I’m gonna have a baby!”

 Mrs Maraj lets out a long breath. And smiled! 

“Thank goodness for that! You scared me Nicki! But that’s wonderful! And yes you are! You’re going to be a wonderful mum. And I know she’s just going to be as beautiful as you baby girl!” Nicki smiled.

 However the smile left as quickly as it came.

 “I know ma, as I’ve been told. But no matter how much of a wonderful mother I am. How long do you think it’s gonna take before she realizes she doesn’t have a normal family. A dad like everybody else! It’s not fair ma! How can I bring her into a world like this! No ma I just can’t do this all alone!” Nicki broke down in tears. 

“Onika, listen to me. You are going to the best mother. That little girl doesn’t need a father to be happy. Yes a father would be great, and I know how much you need Safaree at this time and you’re feeling lonely, and stressed. But it’s going to be okay. That little girl will love you no matter what. It’s no way, in any shape or form your fault the reason Safaree is no longer here. So do NOT blame yourself. Is that clear Onika? Stop doubting yourself!” Nicki wiped her tears. 

“Yes ma, I understand. I .. I. I just hope she understands and doesn’t blame me for this.” 

“She won’t baby girl, stop doubting yourself. Now. I will be coming down on Monday to stay with you for a few days Nika. To make sure you are okay and keep you company for a bit, okay? And don’t bother telling me you’re fine. Because I’m not take no for an answer!” Nicki made a slight giggle.

 “Yes ma. I got you. By the way ma. I love you” 

“I love you too baby girl. Now get some rest. Tell little miss I said goodnight”

 “Okay ma, will do. Speak to you tomorrow. Bye!” 

“Bye bye baby”.

 Nicki hung up the phone. She sighed as she spoke to her belly. 

“Grandma and I love you baby girl. Get here soon” Nicki put her phone on the night stand, and got snuggled up underneath the covers then slowly drifted off to sleep.

1hour 30mins later Nicki’s phone was constantly flashing red. Telling her she had 25 missed calls. 6 new messages and 5 new voicemails. All from the same person she’d never thought she’d hear from again.

Alrightyyyyyy guys! This is chapter one! Hope you enjoyed. I'm gonna need some comments, because i'm struggling to figure out what's going to happen. I have at least 10 chapters planned. But I still need comments! I hope you like it. Please give some constructive criticism! Next chapter will defiantly be up tomorrow. Have a lovely evening!

 - Nicole Grace'Ann J