Awaiting

Nicki woke up feeling somewhat better than she did the day before. She was thankful for the conversation she had with her mum last night. It really did ease the pain of not having Safaree around anymore. Nicki had a day off today. Well not exactly she had a few radio calls to do. But they weren’t that much of an effort because she could just lay down in bed and take the calls. Then after that. Nicki was a free woman for the day. Nicki sat up in the bed and looked around the bed for her phone and TV remote. 

Nicki just wanted to chill for a couple of hours, and watch some Judge Judy. Nicki found the TV remote but she couldn’t find her phone. She remembered it ringing a few times last night, and wanted to check who the calls were from. Nicki just left it and put on her recorded series of Judy Judy. Nicki sat back and relaxed and rubbed her belly. She could feel her baby kick. She looked down at her belly and said

 “Hey baby girl, what you doing in there? You awake now?” Nicki let out a slight giggle.

 A couple of hours later Nicki felt the need to get up, get washed and dressed. She went into her closet and picked out a light shaded pink tracksuit, some underwear and some socks. She then headed off to the shower. Nicki ran the shower then stripped. Nicki then stepped in the shower and washed her body and her natural hair. Once she was done she came out of the shower and wrapped up in her hot pink towel she took off the radiator. She then took the coco butter from the cabinet and rubbed it all over her skin. Nicki then squeezed a little extra and rubbed it all over her belly. She felt her baby kick.

 “You like that baby girl? Do ya?” Nicki chuckled.

 She then put on her clothes. Nicki decided it was time to look for her phone because the radio interviews were about to start soon. Nicki walked into her bedroom, she shook her sheets. It wasn’t there. Looked in her draws. Her phone wasn’t there. Nicki put her hand on head and the other on her stomach. She thought long and hard about where it could be. “AHA” Nicki said. “Gotcha”. Nicki bent down on both of her hands, and crawled underneath her bed. “Found youuu!” She shouted. And got back up. Nicki unlocked her phone and saw all the missed calls and texts from a familiar number. She took a double glance at the number and said “Hmmm, probably just one of Cai’s other phones, 

"I should really call him back” Just as she was about to press call, her phone rang. Nicki sighed and answered the phone. 

"Helloooooo” Nicki said.

 “Yo, yo, yo, miss MINAJ, how you feeling today?!” 

“I’m good! How are you?!"

 “Yes! That’s what we like to hear! I’m fine. But Nicki what your barbz really wants to know is whens that new album coming out?!” Nicki laughed a little. 

“Weeeeeeeeeeeell, I have been working on it a little, so it should be out End of November, early December, and the barbz will all LOVE it.”

 “YESSSSSSSSSS! GOOD NEWSSS! Is there a certain type of theme to it?”

 “No, you know how I am, I don’t like to tie myself down to one type of music, I like to do what I feel, when I feel! And that’s exactly how the album is going to be!”

 “YES MISS NICKI! So what about features, we getting any?”

 “Yeah, there will be a few, I guess”

 “Niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. “Well thank you for talking to us, would you like to introduce your knew song starships for us?!” 

“Yessss I would!”

 “Okay shoot” 

“Alright. BARBZZZZZZ IT’S ME! This is my knew song starships! I hope you love it as much as I do! Enjoy! MWAH!”

 And with that Nicki hung up. She knew she would be repeating that conversation about 10 more times. But after that she was free. Nicki spent about an hour and a half doing radio interviews. Talking about the same things, like her album, upcoming projects ect. Little did they know she would be taking a long break once her baby comes.

 But Nicki couldn't think about telling the outside world right now. The biggest issue was telling the baby’s father. The last thing she wants to happen is for Safaree to find out by the media. That wouldn't go right at all. Deep down Nicki knew that she should have never hid the pregnancy from him. But she was so hurt and upset that she wanted to hurt him. And she thought that this way was best. But she always knew that was the wrong thing to do. Now Nicki has got herself caught up in an awful mess. And the only way she can get out, is to tell Safaree and deal with the consequences of her actions.

 Nicki missed her friends and wanted to catch up so she called Candi and Lauren on a three way call. 

“Hey guys, I miss you and I’m lonely. Can we meet up and do something, but something quiet and discrete, cause the little one.

” “Yeah sounds great Nika, you down Lauren?”

 “Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaap I’m down Can, what you want to do Nika?”

 “Hmmmm! I’m not sure guys, but I need to get out of this damn house. Mind you, I have to get ready for my mums visit. She’s coming to stay for a bit. Buttttttttttttttttttttttt. Make ya way here. And we’ll decide from there okay?” Both Candi and Lauren agreed.

 “Yeap. I’m gonna be a couple of hours, I’m just coming back from my mums” Candi said.

 “And as for me, I’m just on my way back from seeing Rex, so give me an hour or so”  

“Alright guys, love ya!” And then Nicki ended the call. *Sigh*.

 “I guess it’s time to call back Cai”. Nicki dialled the unknown number. 6rings later someone picked up. 

“Hello” Nicki said. 

“Hello, Nicki?”

 As soon as Nicki heard the voice, she quickly pressed the button, and threw the phone to the end of the bed. The thoughts that were running through her mind were “why the FUCK is he calling me, what does he want? What does he know? What’s going on? Why after only NOW, is he calling me?!”

 Nicki was snapped out of her trance by her phone constantly ringing. Nicki was scared to pick it up. Nicki slowly reached to the end of the bed and clicked answer. 

“WHAT?” Nicki answer the phone with an awful attitude.

 “I think we need to meet up Onika. And you know why”. 

“You can’t just ring me out of the blue, and expect me to drop everything to meet up with you. I’m sorry it doesn't work that way Safaree. You were the one who made it like this. So if this happens at all it happens on my terms”

 “When were you going to tell me Onika?!” Safaree asked with a hint of anger in his voice. And with that Nicki ended the call. Nicki just didn't know what to do. Nicki’s phone just kept ringing and ringing and ringing. She switched it off. She needed to clear her mind. Half an hour later. There was a loud knock on her front door ..

Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay guys ! Here’s the second chapter! What do you think? Ima some comments cause I see the pageviews going up! Sorry it took so long to post, I’ve been really ill recently. But I still mamanged to get the chapter done as promised. Let me know what you think! Remember to comment. Or @ me @nicknack_barbie, or if you would prefer to DM me, leave your at name and I’ll follow you, then we can go from there J I haven’t had that much time to read over it, so excuse the mistakes! 
-Nicole Grace’ann 

Wishful Thinking

As she looked over the balcony, out into the late LA skyline all Nicki could think about was how her life had been turned upside down in only a few days. Up until a few days before now, Nicki had the perfect car, house. Nicki had the money, the celeb friends, the designer clothes, shoes and bags. But she had just one thing missing. The perfect husband, boyfriend and best friend. Nicki had all of this up until only a few months ago. Nicki took a sip of her sparkling water and placed the glass back on the floor. She continued to look outside.

2000 - 
Onika and Safaree sat on the steps outside Safaree’s house. Thinking. They had just come back from High school. Today was careers day. Onika and Safaree both enjoyed the day. However they came to the conclusion that both of them wanted different things from life. This worried them as they were the best of friends. Their parents were very close. They had met each other through being neighbours while both of them were pregnant. Ever since then they had been close. Nicki and Safaree had grown up together, attended all the same schools, all the same out of school activities. As well as becoming unbreakable. 

“Faree ..” Nicki nudged him.  Breaking him out of his trance. 

“Yeah Nika?” 

He looked at Nicki right in her eyes. Hoping she was going to say what he has wanted to say for months. 

“Promise me that even if I do become an actress and you become an entrepreneur that we will always be bestfriends. Or even if we have a big falling out, that you’ll always be there for me. Because I need you Faree  ... You are my bestfriend, my brother. I could never lose you. Please don’t leave me”

 Safaree grabbed both of Nicki’s hands and looked her directly in her eyes. 

“Onika, we have fallen out many times before, and we have made up. We will never fall out or be apart. We are like two peas in a pod. We’ll always be bestfriends and we’ll always have each other’s back. You’ll never lose me. And I know I’ll never lose you.”

 
“I know Faree  ... I love you” 

“Love you too Nika” Nicki and Safaree embrace each other in a long hug.

Present Day – 
Nicki put her hand over her baby bump.

 “He promised he’d never leave, he’d promise we’ll all be bestfriends, always be together. That no matter how big our arguments were, that’d he would always have my back. He said he loved me. Guess that was a lie too”.

 Nicki rubbed her hand in circular motions over the medium sized bulge showing through her “It’s pink Friday hoe” top. She whispered to it

 “I love you baby girl, hopefully you’re daddy does too.” 

Nicki stood to her feet and made her way to her bedroom. She pulled out a pair of comfortable girls boxers alongside one of Safaree’s old t-shirts. Nicki then headed off to the bathroom to get in the shower. She ran the shower for a few minutes to let the shower warm up. Nicki took off her clothes and looked at herself in the mirror. She cradled her baby bump and whispered 

“wow baby girl, you’re really getting big now aren’t ya”

 Nicki giggled then walked over to the shower. As she stood underneath the shower she thought over everything she has been feeling these past few months. The only thing that really stuck out to her was what if Safaree didn’t want this baby? What if he didn’t want to have anything to do with her? Or what about if he did, how was he going to take it that Nicki had hid from him that she is pregnant with his child by 5 months? What if Safaree wants to be a family? How can she guarantee he won’t walk out and leave her again? She could not put her baby through that. Nicki would never let that happen. These thoughts could not be pushed to the back of Nicki’s head.

  Nicki washed herself with her dove soap. Nicki rinsed herself off. She stepped out of the shower, grabbed her multi shaded pink towel and wrapped it around herself. Nicki then entered her bedroom and grabbed her coco butter. She sat down on the bed and thoroughly rubbed the coco butter all over her body. It was times like this when she just wished Safaree was here. Just to experience the pregnancy. And to be there for her and support her. But he wasn’t. Nicki had to do it all alone. Well she wasn’t exactly alone. Nicki had Lauren, Candi, her mum and dad. Also her brothers and some other close friends and family members. Still. With all of that support, without the one man she needed by her side she felt all alone. Nicki’s phone rang snapping her out of her thoughts.

 “Hello?”

 Nicki said putting the coco butter back on the night stand and putting on her pj’s that were sat at the end of her bed. 

“Hello Nika, how you and little missy doing?” 

“Were doing good ma, just relaxing, doing what I can. We’re currently just getting into bed. But. How is everything at home?” Nicki said getting underneath the covers. 

“Good! Good news is what I love to hear. And everything is good. Cai has been complaining that he has been missing you, but apart from that. We are all good. And everything is brilliant!” Nicki giggled.

 “Awwww, my baby. Well tell Cai, as long as his school grades are up, and it’s okay with you, he can spend his spring break with me! And that’s good to hear ma really” Mrs Maraj smiled. She loved the bond that all three of her kids had. 

Even though Jelani was grown and had kids of his own. The three were still unbreakable.

 “Oh that would be lovely Onika! I will talk to him and I’ll let you know”

 “Okay ma! Sounds great .. OWWWW! Nicki winced in pain. 

“NICKI! NIKA! What’s wrong?” “Uh .. nothing ma. I think she just kicked for the first time! Oh my gosh ma ! It’s so real! I’m gonna have a baby!”

 Mrs Maraj lets out a long breath. And smiled! 

“Thank goodness for that! You scared me Nicki! But that’s wonderful! And yes you are! You’re going to be a wonderful mum. And I know she’s just going to be as beautiful as you baby girl!” Nicki smiled.

 However the smile left as quickly as it came.

 “I know ma, as I’ve been told. But no matter how much of a wonderful mother I am. How long do you think it’s gonna take before she realizes she doesn’t have a normal family. A dad like everybody else! It’s not fair ma! How can I bring her into a world like this! No ma I just can’t do this all alone!” Nicki broke down in tears. 

“Onika, listen to me. You are going to the best mother. That little girl doesn’t need a father to be happy. Yes a father would be great, and I know how much you need Safaree at this time and you’re feeling lonely, and stressed. But it’s going to be okay. That little girl will love you no matter what. It’s no way, in any shape or form your fault the reason Safaree is no longer here. So do NOT blame yourself. Is that clear Onika? Stop doubting yourself!” Nicki wiped her tears. 

“Yes ma, I understand. I .. I. I just hope she understands and doesn’t blame me for this.” 

“She won’t baby girl, stop doubting yourself. Now. I will be coming down on Monday to stay with you for a few days Nika. To make sure you are okay and keep you company for a bit, okay? And don’t bother telling me you’re fine. Because I’m not take no for an answer!” Nicki made a slight giggle.

 “Yes ma. I got you. By the way ma. I love you” 

“I love you too baby girl. Now get some rest. Tell little miss I said goodnight”

 “Okay ma, will do. Speak to you tomorrow. Bye!” 

“Bye bye baby”.

 Nicki hung up the phone. She sighed as she spoke to her belly. 

“Grandma and I love you baby girl. Get here soon” Nicki put her phone on the night stand, and got snuggled up underneath the covers then slowly drifted off to sleep.

1hour 30mins later Nicki’s phone was constantly flashing red. Telling her she had 25 missed calls. 6 new messages and 5 new voicemails. All from the same person she’d never thought she’d hear from again.

Alrightyyyyyy guys! This is chapter one! Hope you enjoyed. I'm gonna need some comments, because i'm struggling to figure out what's going to happen. I have at least 10 chapters planned. But I still need comments! I hope you like it. Please give some constructive criticism! Next chapter will defiantly be up tomorrow. Have a lovely evening!

 - Nicole Grace'Ann J

Introduction

Hey to whoever may be reading, I will be starting an Onikafaree story. I will be posting a preview at midday today.  The full chapter will be posted around 3pm. I have decided to create this story due to the other amazing Onikafaree stories I have read. They have been very inspiring. So therefore to take up my spare time and as a way of creative expression, I have decided to start my own. With the comments. I’m not hoping for a lot at all. Really all I would like is for constructive criticism. Also what you liked, maybe. But also where you think the story should head.  Hopefully you could help me sub story-lines.  I hope you enjoy the story J - Nicole Grace’ann