Sunday, 29 April 2012

Past&Present


 “Look Safaree, I’m in no position to argue with you right now. Can you just leave please.”

 Nicki felt tears welling up in the back of her eyes. This is not how it was supposed to be. They were supposed to be happy. One big happy family. But in reality. She just knew it wasn’t going to work.

“NO Onika. I want answers, and you will give them to me.”

“You are such a fucking fool Safaree. I can’t believe I married you! How could you even THINK of something like that?! Let alone SAY IT. You are so stupid! UHHHHHHH I HATE YOU. Maybe I should date Drake. Better yet. Maybe I should have married him instead!”

Nicki took a deep breath and stormed off to the kitchen. Hoping Safaree wouldn’t follow her but he did.

Safaree was mad. He didn’t understand why Nicki was acting the way she was. Because quite simply if it was the other way around and Nicki saw pictures and video’s on the internet and “news” of him with one of his EX fiancés. She would have gone BALLISTIC. But because it’s the other way around it’s a whole different story.

Trust had always been a big problem for Nicki and Safaree. Well not exactly trust, but because of the way they came into their relationship, they were scared that could be the same way they left it.
Safaree and Nicki had been the BEST of friends since they were young. Nicki and Safaree ALWAYS had very strong feelings for each other. They were in love with each other, and everyone knew about it EXCEPT for them. When Nicki and Safaree decided it was time to confess their love for each other they were both engaged. Nicki to her 4year boyfriend Luke and Safaree to his 3 ½ year girlfriend Olivia-Rae.

 As well as being engaged Nicki was 2 ½ months pregnant, and Olivia-Rae was ALWAYS on Safaree case about trying for a baby. She was extremely jealous of what Nicki and Luke supposedly had together. Prior to their break-ups, When Nicki and Safaree confessed their love for each other. They had started an intimate affair with each other. A few weeks into the affair Nicki had found out she was pregnant.

 She didn’t know how far along she was, but she was just hoping it wasn’t Safaree’s baby. She knew that there could be a possibility because they had not used protection not once. Whereas with Luke, most of the time they had been using protection, apart from a few times where they got lazy and didn’t bother. Finally when Nicki had gone to the doctors they said that she was a month along which means there was no way it could be Safaree’s baby, and that it was defiantly Luke’s. This was good news for the couple. But for Safaree it wasn’t. He was deeply upset by this. He didn’t understand how Nicki was happy about being pregnant by another man. Even though they weren’t together, and Luke was her Fiancé, Nicki had told him numerous times that he was the one she loved, and not that only that. But she was IN LOVE with him.

The feelings were mutual. But as soon the good news got out. The bad news came spilling out too. A few days later Olivia-Rae found texts from Nicki on Safaree’s phone which he had forgotten to delete. This told all, she was on FIRE. She was mad as HELL. But instead of confronting the situation, she forwarded the texts straight to Luke’s phone packed her bags, and left without saying another word.

Later Safaree had caught on to what had happened when Nicki came to his apartment banging on his door cursing and hitting him for being so stupid and telling him how much she hates him. Luke had called off the engagement and broken up with her. He had also denied their child. He thought that because she was cheating, it wasn’t his baby and it was probably Safaree’s. So he would let him deal with his problems. But Nicki then realised that it was for the best. She really did love Safaree, and she knew Safaree loved her. This meant that they could finally be together and be happy, without all the sneaking, hiding and lying.

There was only just one problem. The baby. Safaree and Nicki had talked it over, and Safaree had decided it was okay that she was pregnant with Luke’s baby. If Nicki wanted and didn’t mind he would raise the baby as his own and he wouldn’t have a problem with it at all. He knew that he would be a better father than Luke would anyway. But problems started to occur. 

Luke started appearing in the scene again, stressing Nicki out. Sending Nicki nasty text messages, saying he was going to do this, that and the other to her, not to mention he said he was gonna kill Safaree. After this message Nicki distanced herself from everyone. She locked herself in her room didn’t, eat, drink, shower, talk do anything apart from sleep, and look out of the window wishing that someone would just take her away. Sadly this caused Nicki to have a miscarriage. After this happened Safaree took matters into his own hands. His sorted out Luke. Which was no problem at all, and he managed to slowly, but surely get Nicki back on track.

“Well Nicki what do you expect me to think! We aren’t on good terms and I know how lonely you could get, and what you get like when you are lonely. So why wouldn’t you run to Drake?! AND YOU KNOW HOW DRAKE IS AROUND YOU. AND WHAT HE SAYS ABOUT YOU!”

Safaree sighed. He didn’t want to be arguing with Nicki.

Nicki got angry. Her blood was starting to boil, and she knew this wasn’t gonna end well at all.

“JEALOUS ARE WE SAFAREE?”

“HELL YEAH. ARE YOU CRAZY?! DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS IS LIKE FOR ME?! FOR US?!”

“To be quite fucking honest Safaree. I don’t fucking care what people think. Anyone who has fucking sense wouldn’t have to ask so a fucking pathetic question!”

Nicki didn’t understand why Safaree didn’t trust her. They were MARRIED. Did that not mean anything to him at all?!

“YOU KNOW THE FUCK WHAT SAFAREE. IF YOU DON’T EVEN TRUST ME. WHY THE FUCK ARE WE EVEN MARRIED?!”

This made Safaree extremely angry. But he needed to keep his angry under control. Safaree didn’t want to say what he wanted to, but he needed Nicki to see it from where he was standing.

“I DON’T KNOW ONIKA. YOU TELL ME. ALL I’M SAYING IS. YOU DONE IT ONCE. YOU CAN DO IT AGAIN”

Nicki ran up to Safaree and slapped him HARD in his face. Her heart was racing.

“WHAT?! HOW FUCKING DARE YOU SAFAREE. YOU KNOW WHAT. GET THE FUCK OUT”
Nicki started to push Safaree in the direction of the door.

“YOU WERE PART OF IT TOO SAFAREE. OR DID YOU FORGET THAT YOU ALSO CHEATED ON YOUR FIANCE. STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME LOOK LIKE THE FUCKING BAD GUY. AND DON’T STAND THERE AND TRY TO ACT ALL INNOCENT LIKE YOU HAVEN’T BEEN FUCKING BITCHES SINCE WE SPILT UP”

Safaree was just about to SHUT NICKI DOWN. When Nicki held her belly and screamed in pain.

“NICKI?! NICKI, NIC!” Safaree shouted.
No response.

Nicki blacked out and Safaree caught her in his arms when he felt something kick .. 


OKAAAAAAAAAAAY YA'LL. I hope this will hold you all over until TUESDAY. Trust me. I want Onikafaree as much as you do. I don't wanna give anything away but next couple of chapters will be cute :) And that's all I will say about that ! *martha voice*. Lots of feedbackkkkkkkkkkkk pretty please ! Hope ya'll like it. Onikafaree will be soon! Don't you worry my darlingsssssss! But until next timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! *kissy face* 
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Why are you here ?




Nicki was just getting into a deep sleep when she heard the door knock multiple times. She wondered if it would be Lauren or Candi or both. Nicki said no more than above a whisper.

 “I could have sworn they said they would be here for over an hour, there’s no way they could be here.”

 Nicki let out a small sigh. She then got up out of her bed and put on a big baggy jumper.  Nicki said aloud 

“I wonder who that could be”.

 Nicki made her way down the 4 story house to the bottom. She didn’t bother looking through the eye hole. She opened the door straight. Ahead of her was someone she’d thought she’d never see for a very very long time. Nicki felt her heart ache. The person at the door had changed dramatically from when Nicki had last seen them. It felt like at least 2 years.

“What.The.Fuck.Are.You.Doing.Here”. Nicki gritted through her teeth.

 “Well before I left, I told you Onika. This was being sorted out. So. Are you gonna let me in or not?!” 

Nicki sighed heavily so the person at the door could hear VERY CLEARLY that she was not impressed. Nicki then rolled her eyes. She then proceeded to respond to the mystery person at the door.

 “FIRST of all, YOU out of all people have no rights to call me Onika. So don’t ever try pull that shit again. SECOND of don’t you ever turn up to MY house, that I, YES ME, paid for out of my good, hard earned money. WITHOUT my fucking 
permission!”

 The person at the door ignores her question and asks one of their own.

 “So. Is it true then Onika?!”

 The person walked into the Nicki’s house and turned around to face her. Nicki was now mad at this point.

 “IS WHAT FUCKING TRUE SAFAREE?!”

Nicki felt her body tense. Could Safaree possibly know that she is pregnant with his child? If so who told him? And how was she going to explain that she was 5 months pregnant with his child, but never thought to tell him.

 Safaree started to get angry. All he wanted was answers. Well that’s what he kept telling himself. All he wanted was for him and Nicki to be back to normal. But he knew that it was gonna take A LOT of time. All he wanted was his wife and his life back. He missed Nicki like crazy. He couldn’t sleep, eat, think without her. He felt like he was living in a place that was in a never ending drought. Safaree knew that deep down. Nicki missed him too. He knew that she was feeling exactly the same way he was. He just needed to get it out of her. The only reason Safaree came back was to get his wife. He didn’t want to argue, or make things worse between them. But if this was the only way he could do it. Then so be it. But before he could start with that. He needed ASNWERS. Safaree tried to keep himself on a cool. But Nicki’s attitude was really rubbing him up the wrong way.

“DON’T THINK I DON’T HEAR ABOUT AND SEE PICTURES AND VIDEO’S OF YOURS AND DRAKES DATES ONIKA!”

 Nicki instantly let out a long breath she didn’t know she was holding. She was happy in a way that Safaree didn’t know. That would have started a whole load of trouble. But what was his deal with Drake. Nicki’s first thought was why do you care. So that’s what Nicki went ahead and asked him.

 “Yeah and … Why do you care. Don’t you remember what YOU did Safaree! What I do is NOTHING to do with you. We made that agreement when you walked out of that fucking door. Don’t act like you don’t remember!”

 “NO, ONIKA. WE DIDN’T MAKE THAT DECISION YOU DID. I KNOW WHAT I DID WAS WRONG. BUT WHAT YOU DID TOO WAS OUT OF ORDER. WE WERE BOTH WRONG. AND YOU KNOW IT. WE ARE BOTH BAD GUYS. So, Are you gonna answer my question? ARE YOU DATING DRAKE?!”

 Nicki decided to calm down. She knew that the stress and shouting wasn’t good for the baby’s sake or hers. She just wanted Safaree to leave. Nicki couldn’t have another repeat of what happened last time.  She needed to clear her head. Did Safaree REALLY think she was dating Drake?! Even though they have made a commitment to each other. He still thinks I would do that?

*hides under the bed*. I'm sorry you guys. It's just that I finish school in less than two weeks, and i'm trying to get everything done and finished. And then i'm off to college ! So hopefully you like this chapter. Let me know what you think. Chapter 4 will be up at 1pm. All written out and ready for you all ! Oh yeah. You're not getting off that easy ! 10 comments at least or no chapter ! 

Nicole xo